It’s Monday and I’m writing this at 1:12am.
I’m laying in bed wide awake while my boyfriend plays fifa.. I have a love and hate with his xbox. It’s like whenever I want attention I get the “wait baby I have 2 minutes left on this game..” seriously all I wanted is a kiss or booty rub. I guess I’ll wait.
I know I’ve been gone for almost a month and trust me it’s not because I wanted to. I’ve been so busy with school and work, then having to produce content for you guys.. I was like hell no I need a mental break before I have a mental breakdown. I laptop is at 13% but I’m way to lazy to grab my charger I’ll probably wait until it hits 5% lol does any one else does that thinking as if magically your lap top or phone doesn’t actually need to get charged and the inconvenience to grab the charger is too much to deal with.. lets see how far I get.
So I started school, something I’ve been wanting to do for a while now, but now that I’m here I just feel extra lazy to get around to doing things. I wish I could just do this for the rest of my life. Just write and drink my chai tea latte (iced). That’s not how life works for some reason we need to have jobs, house, and money. I’ve realized I can live with the minimal a roof under my head, food, and the ocean. I would love to live by the ocean hearing the waves roar at night keeping me company while I write.
Have you guys ever seen those youtubers/ vloggers living their best life? I mean doing what they love. Have you ever thought ” Yup I can do that” But you end up never doing it ? Maybe one day I’ll vlog my life it’s not like I haven’t tried or recored my self but you know what stops me from posting it’s that after posting there’s never going back, your life will never be private again.
I’ll rather have a simple life than not being able to walk down the street or unable to go grocery shopping. Yet I don’t think I’ll stop writing. Writing is who I am. To who ever reads this Good night and I’m glad you’re alive.
I’m back now, I just needed to catch some air.