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Just Because

Hey guys I feel like I’ve been gone for a while! Honestly life got in the way the holidays came and left. I gained like 15 pounds I think! I haven’t checked ops.

Oh and I started school (winter term) a 2 week class… you guys probably think I’m crazy, at least I do. And not only is it for 2 weeks but it’s a psych class, something I feel like I should have thought twice about. I think I just got super excited about going back to school that I couldn’t wait for the spring term to start. I feel like in 2 weeks I won’t learn anything I mean I’ll try but for me I need more to time to understand a certain subject.

Oh and get this I got sick, not with the common cold but with a stomach virus I think it’s literally worse than having a cold. You feel tired, gross and uncomfortable (ALL THE TIME). The cold is a quick fix all you have to do is drink tea, rest and take some day/night-quil. But with a stomach virus you have to wait for it to pass on it’s own and be careful with what you eat because anything can make it worse. Thank goodness I’m feeling better after four days. I actually had to visit the ER because I was having the worse abdominal pain I thought my appendix were about to burst! If it was up to me I would have stayed home and dealt with it.

I hate going to the ER 1.) YOU ARE THERE FOR LITERALLY HOURS! 2.) You have to explain why you are there to at least 8 different people. Last but not least 3.) They always think you’re pregnant. Like no ma’am my period just ended 3 days ago. *QUICK STORY* My ER visit … I woke up at 6am with the worst abdominal pain. I felt like I was having contractions something I know nothing about because I’ve never given birth. It felt like if someone was stabbing me a million times in the same spot. I woke up screaming because of pain I was in! I even woke up my boyfriend and he was having a dream of his own that I later found out I was in and he told me to go to the bathroom ?? In his dream but actually in real life since my scream half woke him. up…confusing I know. Anyways a few hours past and I still felt excruciating pain.

My boyfriend finally convinced me to go to the ER something I hate doing unless it’s absolutely necessary. After doing my own medical research on WEBMED I got scared and thought I was going to die.. it was either my appendix or some sort of disease. When I got there they asked me a bunch of questions which got me more scared about what it could be. After waiting an hour to be seen, the doctor comes in with an intern and tells me to explain why I’m here. The doctor later tells me they need a urine sample and are going to run some test including blood work, vaginal ultrasound (painful) and a CAT scan. They took the urine sample and my blood then hooked me to an IV. You can believe all the thoughts that raced through my mind.

I went to the ER at 3pm and it wasn’t until 8pm that I finally went in for my ultrasound and my CAT scan. After 2 hours a different doctor came in and asked me to explain my situation and that they were waiting for my results. After and hour the doctor comes back and tells me my results are unclear and they believe I have a hole in one of my intestine and air leaking out causing to much liquid in my uterus; and that I would need immediate surgery! The doctor asked me to do another CAT scan to have a clear diagnoses. Could you believe how frighten I got! My worst fears were becoming true.. and I thought I was going to die. I never had surgery in my life and I couldn’t believe it was happening to me!

After hearing the terrible news I started to cry and fell in a desperate need of hope. My amazing boyfriend went into a battle of prayer and answers, and in the midst of my tears, watching E go through spiritual warfare for me! Snapped me out of my own pity party that I was having and I started to pray. I told God that if this is his will, then to let it be done and that I was grateful for this experience that I would go through. I knew he was with me and had nothing to worry about. To the enemy I told “FUCK YOU” because I was not scared of the outcome and I knew God is the ruler of my life. After my prayer I felt an overwhelming feeling of peace and I was ready to be admit into the hospital for my immediate surgery.

I got the second CAT SCAN at 10pm and at 12am my miracle from God came and our prayers were answered. The doctor comes back and tells me I’am 100% healthy. That the second CAT SCAN showed no hole or liquid in my uterus. The doctor discharged me and diagnosis me with “ABDOMINAL PAIN” You guys have no idea how happy I was to get out of that hospital and never go back. My boyfriend and I got back home at 1am EXHAUSTED and HUNGRY. The day after I got a stomach virus or maybe I had it all along and it was just now showing the signs… ugh well guys that was my quick ER story** Seriously guys it’s been a rough couple of weeks but I wanted to update you guys to my loyal readers LOL! I am back and I have a lot of new topics I want to talk about and cover in 2019! I’m going to take a day or two to work more on my site. I can’t wait for you guys to see it!

Take care

XO, Cece!


I’ am a Jersey native , born in El Salvador a small little country in Central America. Arrived to the United States, when I was four years old, not knowing where life will take me. Fast Forward eighteen years later, I’m twenty-three living with my boyfriend, his mom, and three brothers. Life can become hectic and extraordinary full of adventures and struggles, emotional and physical pain. Writing has been the number one source where I can express myself fully. Hopefully my writing can inspire you and help, where ever you are, who ever you are I want you to know you’re not alone and you are important. xo Cece

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