Recently I wrote about love, and how hard it is to be in a relationship..but let tell how hard it really is. Social media couples sugar coat their relationship and only like to show you the happy times now if we were to dig in deep, and underneath the surface we’ll see what’s really going. My boyfriend and I are going through a lot right now, he currently has been on bed rest after he broke his ankle and needed surgery which you would know that caused a financial crisis. We got hit pretty hard when we began to drown in our bills, I am currently a full time caregiver to my boyfriend and working as a part time babysitter trying my very best to bring in money while he focuses on recovering.
Unfortunately my part time isn’t covering all of our bills and expenses, and you’re probably thinking why don’t I get a full time job.. but trust me I am on indeed everyday applying to all sorts of jobs. I stopped being picky I even considered working with food something I absolutely hate. E and I are convinced the universe is playing a trick on us. I am still waiting on the I gotcha part and it’s all a bad dream where my boyfriend didn’t brake his ankle and we’re not drowning on our bills.
The only thing that’s keeping me sane is this blog, why is it being an adult so hard , bills are HARD, the gas bill$$, the water bill$$, the electric bill$$, the cable bill$$, the phone bill$$, the rent$$$ and all the other life expenses you need. No one tells you how it’s going to be when you grow up, schools don’t teach you about credit scores or how to be frugal with your money. Honestly all they teach you is how to take tests, and those test will determine your future, but what if you don’t decide on college or you can’t because it’s to expensive, and now your stuck struggling in the real world. I’M SORRY I’M RANTING NOW.
This week we get to see if “E” can start walking, and hopefully start going to rehab something I’m still not clear on how we will pay. You see what I’m talking about how hard the universe is hitting us right now but I’ am confident there’s light at the end of this tunnel. After everything we’ve been through in the last month I believe there’s blessings to come, I mean how could they not…right, because we definitely deserve it!
Thank God we always make it through, yes we do loose faith and question God a lot but he’s teaching us how to become humble and grateful. I mean it’s embarrassing having to ask for help, especially help for money not everyone can be a Kardashian / Jenner and have their life set at birth. Shit I wanted to be a model, fashion designer, author and have my own talk show host, but for that to happen is one in million. You know what my dream is for … to live comfortable and not worry about bills…
Thank you for taking your time and reading !